• Anxiety,  Appreciation,  Art,  Change,  Fitness,  Interesting,  Mental Health,  Misunderstandings,  Transformation,  Wellness

    “No Filter” September 7, 2018

    I recently read an article on @Elitedaily by @aratagrams on what #filters are creating in the mind for women. It said, “Like every kind of social media, Snapchat is a company with its own agenda. It wants to flatter & persuade you to keep using it, but has no obligation to tell you the truth or take responsibility.” That stood out most to me. A lot of us lack self-care & make it a habit to put a filter on our life. We don’t take control because we can just cover it up. But it’s not easy to cover up low self-esteem. I’ve never had great skin.  Terrible eczema, dry…

  • Interesting,  Mental Health,  Time,  Vibes,  Wellness

    “Its okay to care.” October 17, 2018

    👋 Hey…still here.Keeping life simple & writing a little more.  Just popping in to state…”Its okay to care.”💕 If you want to be understood…Explain. Want to meet up? Invite. Missing someone? Call. Enjoying it? Say so. Not feeling it? Cut it off. Mostly if you love & appreciate someone then tell them. It doesn’t matter how long its been or how out of the blue it maybe. There are no rules to this life & action cures fear.  Social media & society will have you thinking otherwise but never overlook the opportunity to share w/someone that you’re truly invested in them. It’s better than asking “What if?” Life is much…

  • Accountability,  Change,  Interesting,  Mental Health,  Music,  Selfdoubt,  Vibes

    What woman? 1/26/18

    Most days, I come into work on a positive note, including this day. I rarely allow the environment in the work place take me to a negative place. It’s was the last day in the old building, we’ll be relocating a mile away from my home and I’m super excited. The past few months, after the announcement of the move, I held my excitement because most employees were taking it so hard and resisting change. Some of them were even in tears. I’d attempt to uplift and persuade them to make the move benefit them. I’d explain we will always have the power to change or turn our circumstances around whether we believe it or not. Even if…

  • Anxiety,  Mental Health,  Music

    “I Know Broken Girls”

    From an early age, I knew broken girls; they were everywhere, in my church & at my school. Reaching my teen years, I noticed them at work & even in passing at the grocery store. I could look into their eyes and feel a cry out-especially as a child. Versus seeking attention & being obnoxious they were pretty reserved an introverted, with kind eyes, fake smiles & non-confrontational. Majority of them were pretty easy going & often caught in a daze. They had grown accustomed to feel uncomfortable around sons, older brothers, uncles, deacons, bishops & stepdads before they even had reason to. I used to think if the men…

  • Accountability,  Mental Health,  Time,  Vibes

    “If You Have Time, Understand It’s of the Essence.” 1/11/18

    “Feels”  by Snoh Aalegra has the perfect title. The entire album is pretty awesome but “Time” struck something in me that influenced my first blog post of the year. I was once again, allowing time to prevent me from continuing to write. It’s a challenge to fight this every day. “Memories fade and I try to hold on. When I don’t know where I belong anymore. The sound of your voice was my all, but these words, they can’t heal you no more. Searching high and low for peace of mind, I feel I lost some peace of mind. And I wish…. that time…never mattered.” 1/11/18 @snohaalegra "Feels" Album has the…

  • Mental Health

    “Effects of Long Term decisions during Short Term Situations.”

    I’m back home for a funeral this Tuesday; a time to grieve & celebrate life. I’m trying to support family the best way possible and hitting the gym is prepping my mind. March 2017 was a challenging month for my family. There were deaths, bitterness, breakups etc. This caused me to lack off the whole month & gain back a lot of the weight I had already lost. The left pic was my first day back at the gym that month. The right is today & 68 lbs. difference. If I had continued that path, I’d be the exact same weight or higher. What I aim to master during this lifestyle…

  • Mental Health

    Are you aware, just 1 of us, could birth like…10 of you?”

    There’s a soft spot in me for anyone looking to transform their life – especially moms. Most of us are desperate to bounce back into shape after having our baby. The process of giving birth & the journey afterwards takes just about everything but our soul – including time, self-worth, self-confidence, sleep etc. Fortunately, our bodies are so unbelievably amazing to do what they can, along w/everything else on our plate. We have babies looking to us for nurturing & our partner still in need of us to uplift & encourage them. This is all while we’re continuing to bleed out, heal from stitches, pull through postpartum depression & rush…

  • Accountability,  Change,  Mental Health

    “Change Your Mind, Change Your Life.” 1/11/18

    Would you believe me if I said I thought I was looking directly into the camera in the right side photo?👀 My vision was 20/400, which is legally blind. Explaining an eye disease like Keratoconus was a major annoyance for me. My vision fluctuated & my glasses were only helpful to see things just a couple feet in front of me (that was on a good day) I was making the best of the vision I had. I stopped taking selfies for a long time being self-cautious about my eyes. I was also well over 340 pounds, fighting postpartum depression & working 60 + hours a week, on my feet, at…

  • Accountability,  Anxiety,  Change,  Mental Health

    Keratoconus “The Process of Acceptance and Control”

    Fact: The effects of Keratoconus can vary throughout the day, and may be influenced by a variety of factors – such as tiredness, ill health, bright sunlight, lighting & other environmental factors. Most people find it hard to describe exactly what they are seeing to another person. I was diagnosed with Keratoconus at the age of 19. It progressed so soon I had no other option but a cornea transplant. In 2011, my surgeon performed surgery on my right eye. Within a few months I could see better with glasses but still had difficulty seeing out of both eyes. I struggled driving at night and sometimes during the day if the glare…

  • Anxiety,  Mental Health,  Selfdoubt

    “I could’ve been great at Algebra” 2004-2005

    Throughout school, my least favorite subjects were Algebra and Chemistry. I struggled with math since eighth grade and at least once a year I’d win awards like “Most Improved.” I was never proud of them. I used to casually mention to my teacher “Hey, if you happen to have me in mind for this award, let’s just not. Okay?”  She’d say, “What makes you think I’d choose you?” Weeks later the principal’s incorrectly pronouncing my name on stage to present my certificate. I guess she thought by me saying so I really meant the opposite. That totally back fired. Back home (Kansas) if students landed anywhere between 60-69% it was still passing. In…